last christmas i gave you my heart , and the very next day you gave it away .

2010 is coming to an end and so must what i would like to call us , this could be the last post on my Silent Reverie , or not . You see i'm leaving to National Service in 6 days , leaving behind family , friends and even you . Fine - i can't say you're mine , i told people i got over you at February , but what can i say? i sticked to the feelings that come once in awhile . Like they say , you can't forget your first love .

Funny isn't it, how much we went through?

remember , June 21st 2010 - it was your birthday eve , i was as tired as hell - a monday night but i stayed up till 12 am , just to wish you - even though , i wasn't that girl who you want to hear Happy Birthday from , but i guess i just can't help but do it .

remember , a day in August , i went singapore - going missing in action , you called me , you left me messages on facebook . but i didn't reply . I was trying to see who cared and who didn't apparently you did .

remember , November 21st 2009 , yes a year and a month ago . in my room , we had fun - okay that sounds wrong but we had fun the clean way - .

remember , october 2010 , i bought you a wallet - because you kept complaining you needed a new one , December 12th , i was at your house - i saw the bag that kept what i bought you . I almost teared right there right then.

sometimes in life , we oughta move on - i already did my tenth letter - i already did , and its now Your turn , every time you say you miss her / gotten over her / never had the chance to actually express . ever wonder if i felt the same way? Sadly i did .

but today , i can strongly say i'm not going to anymore - you see my tenth letter , you were the best thing that happened to me during my high school years . maybe i will find someone better or maybe i wouldn't , but that depends right?

but one day , trust me one day - you'll tell your self "damn- she really did loved me"

but for now , may you be blinded by everything and anything around you;

the only reason i still want to keep this blog alive is just because , 

so this year , to save me from tears

i'll give my heart to someone special .

maybe in four years time i would be writing in here again .
Or it will be written for someone who loves me more.

but until then. xx

Kah Ee.