i miss you;

is this the power of force.
or the power of love?

hah. if only there is really a "love"

i really do.
i really do love you.
i had a dream.
a dream that i know will remain a dream till . the end of time.
it has got nothing to do with you.
but your relative actually.

remebering dreams;

its been 9 days since i've updated.
and my last post.
i wrote "this is the last time you'll be seeing me"
i lied.

i don't think this blog is an escape.
i think this is where i actually can speak.
but the past 9 days.
a lot actually happened.

+our hands intertwined for the longest time
+the sweetest smile you gave me melted me
+another one actually likes you. which i'm feeling fine over.
+last night. i dreamt about you once more
we were at starbucks. the place that we never miss to go each time we're together
it was still early. in the morning. you dozed off.
watching you sleep like an angel. i put my head on your shoulders.
when i was awake. you were holding my hand.
and smiling in your sleep.
but all i can say. a dream like this could never come true.

-this feeling is something i cant deny
i keep telling myself. we're better off as bestfriend
but i cant stay away.

and i found out she likes you.
is that the reason she's not talking to us?
yeah. she wont badmouth us as she stated.
well bullshit. buch of craps.

honestly i can't stop you from liking him
but let me tell you something .

what kah ee wants.
kah ee gets.
and if i cant have him.
no body can.

this has gotta be the longest post.

we're better off as best friends.

this will be my final post.
until it actually happens.
*cough*
you'll never see me again.

your eyes dont lie;

wow its been a few days since i've posted in here.
maybe this blog is like.
an escape from reality.

but now i know.
reality is much better.

engkaulah destinasiku.

thinking of you;

i was reading the messages
he and his ex sent to each other
i was actually in tears.
its so sweet.

i'm thinking of you
even though you're so far away

somewhere between laughing for no reason;
stupid arguments, and making fun of each other;
i fell in love with you.

don't trust me;

i mastered lying.
if i tell a lie loud enough , often enough people will believe it.

but let me tell you something.
Never regret anything because at one time it was what you wanted.

discovering infinity;

you brighten my whole day.
with just a miss call.

so would you miss me or not?

i can wait forever;

6 months.
its not a short time.

but i can wait forever.
for you.

fly with me;

if you do not feel the same way that i do;

I'm not saying anything.

reading my posts here.
it doesn't mean i'm emotional.

i'm just stating.
what ever that is in my head.

40 kinds of sadness;

it hurts.
it really do.
i'm being conquered by my fantasies and dream.

take me away
to a sweet escape

all about us;

i love you too much
so now.
I'm going to stop.
even liking you hurts so much.
today was memorable

Lets pretend you're mine, even just for one day?