remebering dreams;

its been 9 days since i've updated.
and my last post.
i wrote "this is the last time you'll be seeing me"
i lied.

i don't think this blog is an escape.
i think this is where i actually can speak.
but the past 9 days.
a lot actually happened.

+our hands intertwined for the longest time
+the sweetest smile you gave me melted me
+another one actually likes you. which i'm feeling fine over.
+last night. i dreamt about you once more
we were at starbucks. the place that we never miss to go each time we're together
it was still early. in the morning. you dozed off.
watching you sleep like an angel. i put my head on your shoulders.
when i was awake. you were holding my hand.
and smiling in your sleep.
but all i can say. a dream like this could never come true.

-this feeling is something i cant deny
i keep telling myself. we're better off as bestfriend
but i cant stay away.

and i found out she likes you.
is that the reason she's not talking to us?
yeah. she wont badmouth us as she stated.
well bullshit. buch of craps.

honestly i can't stop you from liking him
but let me tell you something .

what kah ee wants.
kah ee gets.
and if i cant have him.
no body can.

this has gotta be the longest post.