too far gone;

its one of those days where i feel if i type this at my blog people would say i am showing off;

being the president of 3 societies and the commander is hard. really hard;
the stress, its really never ending. but at the end of the day. when you achieve something, you just feel so good. that all the hard work you put in is worth it.

last year i was the girl who showed up in zero school activities, 90% of my attendance is zero;
but this year. im staying back 4 times a week; end up being the president.
life is a funny thing eh? maybe it is time to turn over a new leaf.

since the boy is out of my head; its time for me to focus on studies. a bit more than usual.

walk it out;

To hide the key to your heart is to risk forgetting where you placed it;

you call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger;

the stress of being a senior is finally flowing in;
i sat on the floor and started crying.

i need my stress relievers.

If I seem distant , i am;

I'm cursing the day you walk into my life;
those time we spent together, i never really had much fun.

i don't even have the heart to blog here anymore;
it seems like we're both avoiding each other on purpose;

Looking, for that something to LIVE, to DIE, to CRY for.

i thought i've found that something; too bad, you're not even worth a single tear.

i broke my new years resolution; crying is something i wouldn't do.

i got everything i want;

that juicy couture perfume;
that thomas sabo bracelet;
that Swarovski necklace;

except you;
i would trade everything for you.
no; that's just stupid, boys are stupid.

everybody tells me that i'm the lucky one;

i always believed that it was faith that brought me to liking you;
but after a whole year, i believed its not faith. nor its the things we have in common;
if we actually count the things we have in common, i'll give it a zero;

You're the morning person, I'm the night person;
You're the studious person, I'm the slacker;
You're the talker, I'm the listener;
You tell the truth, I lie;

in fact, dare i say it? i have more things in common with your brother.
we both linger and long for things;
nights before he sleep he reads the letters;
nights before i fall asleep i read your texts;
we both wants a lover we do not need to love;
if i have to list down everything; i would feel as if i am betraying.

L is for life;

to sleep, perchance to dream;

this post is to be scheduled at 12 a.m. on the 1st of January 2010;

as i'm typing this its 28th of December;

2009 has been a very memorable year for me, many things changed; but hey, i'm not complaining; the more things change, the more they stay the same.

this year i actually met someone who i cared for. so much that i cried for him. and truth to be told, i never cry for anyone.

this feeling, this feeling is just pure unrequited. was i smart enough to not say what is on my mind? or was i stupid enough to not say what is on my mind;

well well, things around me are doing great, but who knows that might change in a few days; actually, i do not get what problems do people have. why can't they just keep feelings to themselves? i do that 100% of the time don't i?

i must say, some people are just pathetic, too desperate for attention; attention seekers;

right now, i know i am loosing you quick, and i am not going to find another you. its impossible. its you who let me go; i held on for so long. its always you.

i never wanted this post to be emotional. i always wanted things to stay the same, because i think life is passing on too fast. in a blink of an eye, the whole year is gone just like so.