to sleep, perchance to dream;

this post is to be scheduled at 12 a.m. on the 1st of January 2010;

as i'm typing this its 28th of December;

2009 has been a very memorable year for me, many things changed; but hey, i'm not complaining; the more things change, the more they stay the same.

this year i actually met someone who i cared for. so much that i cried for him. and truth to be told, i never cry for anyone.

this feeling, this feeling is just pure unrequited. was i smart enough to not say what is on my mind? or was i stupid enough to not say what is on my mind;

well well, things around me are doing great, but who knows that might change in a few days; actually, i do not get what problems do people have. why can't they just keep feelings to themselves? i do that 100% of the time don't i?

i must say, some people are just pathetic, too desperate for attention; attention seekers;

right now, i know i am loosing you quick, and i am not going to find another you. its impossible. its you who let me go; i held on for so long. its always you.

i never wanted this post to be emotional. i always wanted things to stay the same, because i think life is passing on too fast. in a blink of an eye, the whole year is gone just like so.