You Can't Break A Broken Heart;

i'm in my fifth and final stage;
acceptance;

its been a long while since i've actually blogged here;

i am immune to you now;

still; there is a fact that i will not change;
the fact that i still care for you, irrevocably.

warwick avenue;

I’ve always been a dreamer ;
but would you be my solid ground?

forgive me for having hopes and dreams?
and i shall forgive you for crushing them;

forgiveness brings inner peace.

stolen;

tonight i will sleep well;

there are five phase in a situation -
denial; anger; bargaining; depression; acceptance;

every fairy tale; there is two endings,
let say this time; i am not that lucky.
or maybe my prince charming is in denial too;

Resistance;

ahh; my 100th post;
actually my 101;
because there is one left unpublished.

i miss typing here;
but i need to do a few things-

watching my thoughts ; they just became words
watch my words ; they just turned into actions.
and my actions? ; they became a habit.

good night world
i have school in 3 1/2 hours.

i miss you;

i still want a lover, i do not need to love;

Happiness might be;

a sweet smile;
a hot shower;
hot chocolate;
a best friend;
hearing the rain;
watching the dawn;
falling in love.

whatever it is;
remember. ever 60 seconds you spend upset;
is a minute if happiness you'll never get back

Everything that matters, breaks in two.

beautiful soul;

i don't know what am i afraid of;
even if i do;
i wouldn't admit that i am afraid of loosing you;

they told me i would never survive;
but survivals is my middle name.

real world;

Momma never taught me how to love;
Daddy never taught me how to feel,
Momma never taught me how to touch;
Daddy never showed me how to heal.

this is the real world;
live with it;

kiss yourself goodbye;

an apology is a good way to have the last word;

i am not sorry.

i'm Going Back To 505;

In five years, will this matter?


reading taxidiary
a PhD student from Stanford turned into a Taxi Driver;

the way he writes; it makes a person shivers;
some of his experiences might not make sense but then again;
none of mine make sense too.

you know what;
both of you piss me off a lot;
call me a hypocrite;
i know i am one and not afraid to admit;

Whoever gloats over disaster will not go unpunished
2 more hours why bother sleeping eh?

don't trust me ii;

I hate knowing peoples flaws;
their secrets;
their problems;

I am afraid I'll let it out;
or use it against them;

did those line made you regret for telling me anything?

or everything?

shhh;

i promise it will be our little secret.

flashbacks;

do you get them often?;
it played out like an old movie;

you want to know what is the worst part of my flash back?
its that I'm being lied to;
and knowing i am not worth the truth.


whatever;

Ku mahu kau tahu;
Engkaulah, destinasiku,
Dalam ingatanku.

untittled iii;

did the silent reverie;
helped in my English essay today?;

Love;
that's what we need to write;

957 words;
straight from the heart;

now;
i shall wait for the results;

I promise you;

the littlest things he does;
makes me cry;
i never felt so weak;


A:
that stupid boy
i hope one day he finally realize you're important to him
and realize its to late to get you
hah! take that you dumb ass!


i hope i can make the "its to late to get you" part reality;

you know what? i feel foolish now;
why do i even bother crying?
i have friends who loves me.
that's enough;

life is a stage;
act one is when we met and i fell in love;
after awhile;
act two is when i realize that you have changed;
now all i want to do is;
bring the curtains down;

2 sentence; just for you;

from now on;
i'll be cold as you;

wait a minute;
am i selfish to say that?
according to A and E;
i'm not.

Dreaming with a broken heart;

The feeling is not there anymore but;
I still Keep our picture in my purse;
hoping one day i could tell someone that;

there is-was an us.

i did not run away to see
if you would follow me or not

i ran away because
i want freedom;

I know a boy he put the colors inside of my world;
and You're my happy drug;
S once ask me;
was it you that i was talking about;

i denied it;
you want to know how long ago was it?
10 months.

let me go;

Can you love something so much;
that you don't see the danger that it brings?

I don't write here because i want to say something;
I write because i've got something to say;

i went on 7 days;
without thinking about you once;
is that good?

Why Does it rain?;

do you remember asking your mother about that?;
Those answers that we want to believe;

When the thunder roars;
The angel had a strike;
When it rains;
The angels are crying;

The Rain Bird Brought rain;

Hyades the messenger of spring rain;
Rain represent Hyades tears of grief for his brother Hyas;


and none of those "the gas become liquid condensation things"

do you remember;
those simple things we wanna believe?

you held my hand;
but you don't understand;
that's why i wonder;
why hold it in the first place?

say you,say me;

am not sure why;
but i want a chat box in this blog;
leave me a message would you?

i feel guilty;
but feeling like i did the right thing.

i feel regret;
but i know it had to be done.

trusting;
even when everything tells me not to.

May angels lead you in;
Hear you me, My friends.

love me tender;

I'd rather go on hearing your lies;
than to go on living without you.

Elvis Presley - Are You Lonesome Tonight

would you give up songs from

Britney Spears,Jesse McCartney,
Jonas Brothers, Lady Gaga,
All American Rejects

just for Elvis Presley?
the rock legend.

I just did;