by the time;

when the time comes; i will know what happen.
things like those never goes right; i am afraid;
but what i am scared more is. if it goes well;
i'm afraid that i will be leaving this place for good;
afraid that i am-
not gonna have A's cupcake; S's violence; E's Reality; J's company;
everything is never going to be the same; even with talking online 24 hours;
things change , i know because i was the change.


i pray and hope hard that it will workout; maybe change isn't that bad;
but i promise you god; if things goes as planned. this will be my second chance;
i promise i would forget him for good; i promise that i will make my days worth.
i promise it will be tears of joy that my parents shed; and never tears of anguish;
i promise. i promise. i promise that hatred will never be apart of my life.

2 months; 2 months i will know.

this is it, change; hopefully.